Hi my name is Martaysha, but everyone just calls me Martie. I am 16 years old and a junior in high school. At 9 years old i was taken out of my home and placed into foster care, 5 years later i was adopted by two wonderful people. When i first moved in with my parents i was bitter and angry, who wouldn't be? I had just lost people that i loved, i lost my mother who lived in a completely different state at, my father who I was living with at the time, and most important to me my two younger sisters who were both living with my mom in Indiana. I was in 2 different foster homes and 4 different level 6 group homes. Level six group homes are for kids who have severe behavior issues, and I was one of those with that problem. People now wouldn't believe that I was a troubled child but thats because I have a mom and a dad who pay attention to me. Most kids who go through or are going through what i have been through act tough because they want attention, attention that they never have gotten from their own families. I remember i used to get so mad at kids who said they hated their parents and siblings, sometimes I just wanted to smack them and say "well at least you have a family to go home to, a family who loves and cares for you and will always love and care for you, a family who will go to their graves loving and caring for you." I now have two of the most amazing parents that I could ever ask for, I know sometimes I get mad at what they tell me to do or something like that, but what normal teenager doesn't do that? That comes to a few more amazing things that have happend to me.
Earlier this year I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. He used a guy that goes to my church to open my eyes and realise that I need him in my life. This particulare man had cancer, I hadn't been around anyone with cancer since my grandma passed away 8 years ago from lung cancer, and it "broke" my heart to see someone suffering like that. I don't know what kind of cancer he had but I think it was pretty bad, so after the sermon that day I went up to my mom and said "I think it's time to let Jesus in, he has been knocking on my door for to long and I need to let him in now." She just smiled at me and said "welcome to the family." I then with my mom and my pastors wife went into another room and prayed and let God take over my life. I am still hanging onto a little bit of bitterness from my birth father, but I think that is now gone to. The other day i sent a letter to my father and told him how i felt, I told him I want a relationship with him and only him. I gave him numbers that he could reach me at so I'm just waiting for him to make a decision now.
My last thing i would like to talk about before I end this is my wonderful boyfriend. I know alot of people day that it's impossible to fall in love at 16, but I think that they are wrong. Not everyone is going to fall in love at 16, 17, or 18, but there are acceptions to the rule, and I think my boyfriend and I are one of those acceptions. I am going to say this, I am in LOVE with my boyfriend. He is an amazing guy. He is always there for me and is constantly picking me up when I fall. He is always there when I need him, and when i don't need him. :) Even though I scare him when I get mad he always attempts to try and calm me down, most of the time it works if it's not him I'm mad at. He pretty much completes me, if that makes any since at all.
That is all i have to say this time around, thanks for taking the time to read this and I hope you read more posts that i put on here.
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